“And let us pray that we will have a wonderful game trip and a safe way there,” I heard the coach say as he prayed. I stopped before obtaining on the bus so that he could finish. I was nervous about what just happened. He kissed me! He kissed me in public. I really believed that what we were performing was going to be a private thing, but he probably didn?t see it that way.
I sighed and got on the bus when coach finished praying. I noticed, needless to say, that there weren?t any seats available. My brother took the 1 that was beside Cass, so I searched for one. My eyes dulled on a seat that was open, but I dreaded going there. Jason was sitting all alone when I approached him. He was texting at an impeccable speed and I just took my seat beside him and leaned back. He noticed I was there and looked open.
“So you actually sat beside me. Shocker,” he snorted. I flew him a deceiving look.
“Well, in case you haven?t noticed, there wasn?t a variety of seats to choose from.” I plugged my headphones in my ear and smirked. “You ought to really feel genuinely special that I sat beside you.”
He shifted in his seat, not ready for my upcoming comeback. “Special?” he said. He chuckled. “Hardly. You?re a Sophie. One of the pretty ones naturally?Well, the only pretty 1 the Gang hasn?t banged.”
I removed 1 of my earplugs and looked at him. “?The gang hasn?t banged?? What is that supposed to mean?” He shrugged and started texting once again.
“You know specifically what I mean. You got banged of course, but it doesn?t count.” Now I was genuinely confused. What was he talking about? The Gang is supposed to mean what? And banging, needless to say meant sex, but I hadn?t had it; unless he was talking about when?
Before I could have my thoughts jumbled from thinking so challenging, I saw my brother approach us. He leaned more than and began whispering into Jason?s ear. Jason nodded, grabbed his points, stood up, and went to sit beside Cassie. Matt sat beside me and had his pillow out and perched it out the window.
“Why didn?t you sit beside Cass?” I asked laying my head on top of his shoulder. I felt his body shrug and then he eyed me.
“Maybe I wanted to spend the bus ride here with my sister. She was kind of stressed out last night when she came property from her date with KJ. I don?t know. Possibly it had to do one thing using the believed of our mother becoming within the identical room as her, but who knows.”
I smirked. I hadn?t thought about my mother given that I got here. All I could believe of now was what Jason just said about banging. I leaned up and looked at my brother intensely. “Matt, have you told anybody about him?”
My brother leaned up truly rapidly and gave me a concerned look. “No. Why on earth would you-”
“Nothing,” I stated plainly. “Don?t be concerned about it. I should have never brought it up.”
“No. Now I’m going to worry about it. Who said something about it? Was it Jason?”
“No Matt. Stop jumping to conclusions. It was just I was thinking about it when I shouldn?t have been and it was dumb. It was only going to create me far more upset than its generating you.”
“Every time I think about it, I feel like punching a wall in.” He leaned back and let his voice go softer. “To imagine that a person truly did what they did to you. I hate it alright. I was supposed to protect you, and I couldn?t even protect you.”
I saw the fury in his face. His hand clenched to where his knuckles turned white. I just looked at him and planted 1 on his cheek. “Quit worrying. You are able to get like wrinkles or some thing.” He smiled and grabbed my hand.
“Only in case you say so master.” He bowed. I rolled my eyes. Then he kissed my hand and held it for a although. He employed to do that when I was like two and he was 4. When I had influenza, he said it was his way of understanding that I was alive, because I used to clutch his hand back when he kissed it. It stuck with him simply because now he kissed my hand whenever he needed to get via the day or when I was in a bad mood. It often calmed me down and I just liked the reality that he was the 1 calming me. I love Matt. (:
It had to have been like an hour into the bus ride to Dallas when my phone vibrated. I woke up from my restless sleep and looked about. Some of football players had been already in a deep sleep. I noted that Matt had drooled on his pillow. I answered my phone prior to I felt my leg vibrate once again.
“Hello?” I asked in my most groggiest voice.
“Briana?” I heard Jez say into the receiver. I sat up some and rubbed my eye.
“Yeah. Jez. Hey.”
“How did you know it was me? I?m using Kenneth?s phone.” I looked in the phone and it said Kenneth on it. He was using his phone.
“You have a distinctive voice Jez,” I stated. He chuckled some. “What are you performing? Where?s Kenneth?” I asked truly concerned. He would usually text me, but he didn?t and I was concerned.
“I know its distinctive.” I heard coughing within the background. “Kenneth is taking a nap. Aww, he looks so darling.” I laughed and I heard him chuckle. “I uh, called to know what was up with you. He was upset whenever you just walked off like that. He felt like he did one thing wrong.”
I sighed and pressed my fingers to my eyes. “I was?”
“Embarrassed? He could realize it in case you were. Kenneth is just that type of person.”
“No. I wasn?t embarrassed. Don?t make him feel that. He just caught me off guard.”
“That?s not what he thinks.”
“I?m not trying to alter his mind on what he thinks. I can?t do that. But what I?m saying is?I can?t specifically explain what is actually on my mind.”
“Why it’s that you simply can?t get close to him?” I hesitated on what it is that I was about to say subsequent.
“You could say that. It?s too considerably baggage on me to burden him with. I like Kenneth. That?s what is so scary about this all.” I heard him huff in response. “I know it sounds stupid. I just..”
“It doesn?t sound stupid at all. Everyone has baggage in their past and there may well be a reason you might be afraid to be with him. Tell me if I am going too far.”
“No,” I stated smiling. “You?re proper on the mark with this Jez.”
“I just wish I knew why it was?”
“I can tell you obviously.”
“You would?”
“I wouldn?t have a problem. You appear like a trusting person and I don?t believe that you would tell anybody,” I said running my fingers by way of my hair.
“Who have you told?” he said.
I smirked. “No one, but my brother and my mother.”
“Not even Cecilia knows? Now I genuinely really feel special.” I smiled and rolled my eyes. “You don?t have to roll your eyes at me.” I blinked in astonishment.
“How do you realize that I’m rolling my eyes at you?” I asked.
“Its just what you do at times.” There was a pause. “You can tell me. I?m prepared to hear anything else.”
“Alright?I was raped last year.” He didn?t say anything for a even though and I knew that it caught him off guard. It caught my brother off guard too, because he was type of there when it happened, he just didn?t know what it was that I was doing. He believed I was a regular freshman performing regular freshman issues. That wasn?t the case.
“Wow,” he said lastly responding after a while of silence. “I would have never expected that to take place from you. You will be constantly so pleased and joyful?and..I just..”
“Yeah nobody could. I was absent for a week. It wasn?t proper for me to come to school. The worst factor was is that he didn?t use protection. My mother thought that I caught like a disease and we went to every health clinic possible and then she took me to the doctor because she thought that I was pregnant.” I sighed. “It was a lot of hulla baloo.”
I felt a tear run down my cheek and I wiped it off. Discussing this was one of the most hardest things to do. “I?m genuinely sorry Briana. I truly am.”
“Its not your fault. Items happen and they take place for a reason needless to say.” I sighed. “Well, I wont go into detail of how it all came about or whatever. It was this thing. Each and every time he saw me at school, he would just look the other way or laugh with his buddies or some thing and I had to show them that he didn?t get the greatest of me. Then one day, he cornered me in the hallway and stated that if I told he would kill me with no hesitation.”
“He goes to our school?!” I swear I heard him step on the breaks.
“Not anymore of course. He moved.”
“Is that why you didn?t tell your mom cause you were scared that he would actually kill you?” I paused and thought about it.
“Yeah. He scared me.”
“Well you let me know who he is and I will teach him a lesson.” There was no humor in his voice. He was dead serious and that?s what scared me
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